last night I re-read "Juniper" all in one sitting while eating chocolate and sucking down the ibuprofen and it was peaceful (Ryan got a chance to do his thing on the computer for a while in between hot pack re-heatings for my tummy) and

it's nice to give myself a break, even though i'm not busy anymore.

i forget that it's good to retreat, sometimes, and curl up in bed for the evening, and let my insides heal from being all crazy. :)